Tears of Heartache to Tears of Joy

This post is written by my very strong friend who was brave enough to share some of the struggles she faced when she finally decided she wanted a child to encourage women who just aren't sure why it's not happening for them.

I don't think enough people acknowledge that women may be trying and failing to get pregnant. This should be a consideration before we socially ask "When are you having kids?" We don't know who's struggling behind close doors. Maybe we rethink and ask "Would you like to have kids someday?" to protect the feelings of any woman who may not be able to. Thank you for sharing Sam! We are so happy for you and your beautiful little man!!!

Tears of Heartache to Tears of Joy

Having a baby was never a part of plan in life until I met my now husband. Since I was 37 when we got married we decided to start trying to conceive right away. I remember thinking that I would be pregnant soon and our lives would be great. Little did I know how long it would take and how many pregnancy tests I would take that would be negative. After over a year and a half of tracking my ovulation, taking monthly pregnancy tests and sitting in the floor crying I decided to stop. In October of 2018 I quit tracking everything and decided to focus on myself. January 2019 I found out I was pregnant and to my surprise I was almost 8 weeks. My heart nearly exploded with excitement. Being pregnant was everything I had wanted for so long and I was beyond thrilled.

After the excitement settled in, I began to feel the effects of being pregnant. I had morning sickness which hit me every afternoon and the food aversions were tough. Add in the hormones and the swollen and sore boobs and it made for a trying first trimester. My second trimester was exactly how the books described it for me “the honeymoon phase.” I felt like myself again and I started to have have a little bump to prove i was pregnant. Lastly the third trimester was the toughest for me. I had gained 25lbs during pregnancy and it was a lot for me carry around. I was also very tired from waking up all night to visit the restroom or from just not being able to sleep. Fortunately, there is light at the end of every tunnel and I got to meet my little man August 31!

Since giving birth, I feel like I have shed just as many tears as before getting pregnant. I cry because I am happy or sad because he is growing so fast or because I don’t know if I am doing things right. At the end of the day, I look back at my experience and I wouldn’t change my journey because I wouldn’t appreciate it as much as I do. So to anyone who is questioning why they can’t get pregnant, am I ever going to feel like myself again or am I a good enough mother; just know that everything will happen when it suppose to in your life. And, as women we are all doing our very best and we are all doing an amazing job!